I got a little disappointed today. I thought I was going to be able to pay for the car and found out that the credit union is closed today and tomorrow. Oh well, it’s only a couple more days. I don’t really have anywhere to drive this weekend anyway. I should be able to get to the credit union at 8:30am Monday, and then drive the car to work. I lost about $100 this week cause I had to work with someone else, so it will help me a lot having my own wheels.
My brother’s addition is coming along nicely. All of the doors are installed along with the door trim. Most of the baseboard trim is cut and in place. The french doors that go outside from the big bedroom need to be reset (I didn’t install them, the builders did). I am going to have to take the whole 2 door unit out and reinstall it properly. That will probably be my project Sunday. We still have the bathroom to do. Ceramic tile goes on the bathroom floor and under the washer and dryer. Not having a car has really helped with the progress here.
I think I am going to get up early in the morning and ride with my brother and sister-in-law to the rabbit show. They show Dutch rabbits and win quite a few awards. I have never been to one before (unless you count the county fair) so it should be interesting. I am going to take my camera and take some pictures, so I can post them on here Monday or Tuesday when I get back up to Bay City.
I continue reading every night and am learning more and more. Before the reading, I probably would have been more upset about the car situation. Sure, it sucks not having a car, but I’ve been getting around okay. I lost a little money, but I’ll make it up in the next few weeks. I remain optimistic about my future and the direction I am going. Things could be better, sure, but in the grand scheme of things, they are pretty darn good. I’ve been eating and sleeping a lot better. I feel a lot better physically and emotionally than I have in a very long time. Friends and family have helped a lot too. But, I think the biggest factor is the reading and understanding my emotions better. I am more outgoing and worry less what other people think. I am learning that it’s not the “stuff” that gets me upset or depressed, it’s my self talk and beliefs. I have been changing the way I think of things (or activating events). Everything is not black and white. My irrational beliefs are the root cause of my anxiety, anger, and depression. My shoulds and musts are a problem too. I know I have a ways to go, but I will get there.
