I’m still working on getting a car. I am very lucky to have an understanding boss. I won’t make as much money working with him instead of on my own so it will take longer to get money for a car than I thought before I lost the car I was using. That’s okay though, I will get through it. At least that’s one less person I have to depend on. Is it harder for me? Yes, it’s hard. It’s also easier in a way. I no longer have to worry about walking on eggshells. I am no longer so stressed all the time. I have relaxed more in the last few days than in a very long time. I have been eating and sleeping better and feel better than ever. I have learned that I am not as bad as people have said.
My brother is going to let me borrow his car for the weekend so I can get the kids. I am glad about that, because if he hadn’t, I wouldn’t see them for almost a month. Hopefully by the next time I am supposed to get them I have a car. I am looking forward to seeing them and spending the weekend with them. I am sure that we’ll have fun. I hear that they are really getting stressed at their mom’s house.
I worked all day today on paperwork for the business. We got customer lists organized and sorted. We called back potential customers that we hadn’t heard from and picked up some more customers, some commercial and some residental. We are at a make or break point in the business or I would have went home today.
I miss my own computer and my music. I still have my ipod until the battery dies so that’s okay. I’m sure my life could be better, but right now, at this moment, it’s not that bad. I can and will live with it, adjust, and go on. I have a lot to look forward to (car, being on my own, spending more time with my kids, working more, making new friends). I am really believing that the best years of my life are ahead of me and have not already past. I have had great moments in my life such as when each of my kids were born.
I am getting tired so I think I’ll stop here and go to bed. I am glad I got the opportunity to blog today.
