I just looked out the window and saw that it is snowing again. Then I looked at the weather forecast for tonight. I guess we are supposed to get up to an inch in some areas. Oh well, supposed to be 40 degrees tomorrow so hopefully it will all melt. The only place I have to be tomorrow is my doctor’s appointment in the afternoon. I had forgotten about it until I got the reminder call this evening.
I had a very rough time the last couple days. I have been awake for 38 hours after getting 3 hours of sleep Sunday night/ morning. I am not blaming anyone but myself, but that doesn’t change the fact that I am very tired as I write this. I blew Monday’s list right out the window. My focus for the next week and a half will be on getting a car. Not because I have too (at least I don’t think so), but, because it is time to. Some of my friends are helping me, which is real nice of them. I am very stressed right now about a lot of things. Health issues, friendships, car problems, work issues, the pain I am in, money, and just plan ole life top the list. I try to not complain a lot about it and focus on the positives in my life, but sometimes that just doesn’t work. A friend thinks that he has found a car for me. Problem is, it costs a little more than I can come up with. A payment plan is possible I think so that would help. If I have too, I will sell my computer. I am not going to be able to afford the internet when I get my own place, so a desktop computer would not be useful anyway. I will miss my online friends I am sure, but I gotta learn to live within my means. It is the only thing I own right now that has any value (and that’s not a lot). I really want to just sit and cry right now, but I know that wouldn’t do anything but give me a worse headache. Going to try and get some sleep.
